My Favorite Person
Having some troubles with Blogger. I use it's platform for my blogging and I just wrote practically a whole post and I lost it. So trying again. Looks like its time for me to set up a website on a new platform. I've been putting it off, but this is the 2nd time this has happened to me.
Just exhausted today and it's making me grumpy. It's just that I feel like I need some time to myself and not just a few hours. Like a day or two. That won't happen, but I now have a new fantasy of going to Marlenny's bachelorette party this summer in NYC by myself. I miss being alone. The Gina of 20yrs ago is going you got to be kidding me!
When I was single I worked a lot, but I always had time for myself. Even then I knew how precious it was to have time for yourself and recuperate. My time to myself was me being with me. The more time I spent with myself doing things and exploring the city I really started to enjoy being with myself. There is some thing to liking your own company. I miss that!
What happened to interrupt my enjoyment of my own company? Her name is Myah and she came in a 7 pound 4 ounce package and now she is a 4 year old wonder. My miracle who calls me her best friend forever! Motherhood altered every atom in my body and soul. She is my light!
Do I have to give up my time to myself because I am a Mommy? No. But there has to be some creating time for myself. Problem: the kid is like her father in that I always miss him when I'm not with him...and now her too.
For me, it is important to have time to recharge my mind and body. I say this not because it is a part of me managing my illness, but because it makes me a better mother, wife and person.
I am not sure what the resolution to my problem is yet but when I do solve it, you all will be the first to know!
Love and Peace to You All!