Food For My Thoughts!
I was out sick the last few days, so I apologize for not posting anything! Really not clear as to what to write about today because my mind is bursting with so many thoughts.
I am "on purpose" right? New business opportunity and we are planning to move to the beach. Well, the business is not up and running because I set up my FB page incorrectly and am now figuring out how to proceed today.
Now that Myah is in school we are back dealing with the bureaucracy and all the other stuff too. We really don't like it here. It really brings me down. I haven't been looking back and saying why didn't we do more research until this morning while driving Myah to school. This is first I time felt really angry about this. We have this beautiful child and uprooting her the first time was hard and now here we are going to do it again.
There is a part of me that wants to go back to NYC. Myah and I both miss it so much. Jess doesn't like here either, but doesn't miss New York. I miss a sense of belonging and being a part of something bigger than me.
My feelings today are a mixture of anger, longing and sadness. I know this too shall pass. Plus these are feelings, not truths. I also know that I have within my power the ability to turn my thoughts in a more positive direction. Just not there right now!
What I also think is going on for me is that I have put more expectations on myself and I feel too pressured to move forward. This isn't something new, but since I am older and in a new country, it is taking it's toll. I am so looking forward to seeing my therapist tomorrow!!
Look, life is a journey and sometimes we get stopped along the way. It's ok because usually a breakthrough is just around the corner!
Love and Peace!