Currently in Long Distance relationship witth NYC

 Hola, 

There is no other way of saying this:  I am homesick for New York. It's been like this for quite awhile. I moved to NYC at the ripe old age of 20 and left to move to Costa Rica 33yrs later at 53.

What do I miss? Walking everywhere, dressing for the streets, shopping, the food, being able to take the subway or bus any where and people watching. Did I say shopping?  Well, another thing I miss a lot is culture. I miss all the museums, Broadway, and good live music. 

Look, I am a New Yorker! That is my identity. Along with being a wife and mother. Before I was those things, I was independent Gina living in NYC.  Independent Gina! 

How I miss that girl...walking the streets of NYC creating myself. The beat of the city's energy pulsing through me and moving me forward. Getting lost in my thoughts or the music in my ear buds. 

The thing I miss the most is Central Park...the place where I ran with God and mediated on life. The conversations we had. Where I had to run before making any big decisions. If troubled I ran in the park. I grieved the loss of my parents and my dog Lulee there. Best of all I was married there at the Boathouse! Myah spent her toddler years walking and exploring nature in the park.

NewYork is a great place to fall in love. We have so many beautiful memories dating, being newlyweds and having our amazing daughter Myah. Those early years with her in the city are about the happiest times in my life.

I did realize what I'd be giving up when we left for Costa Rica, but I was ready to get away from the hustle and bustle. Along with the high cost of living. Plus, education in New York is not great in the public schools and private schools were way out of our range.

My feelings of isolation here, the lack of accessibility and very little culture were unexpected. I love Costa Rica for many reasons and that's why I am still here. It's a beautiful country and that includes its people. I love Myah growing up here and the community we built.

It's just that at this point in my life, I'd like to live in both places instead of just being here all the time. I'm trying to figure out how to do that right now.

In short I am looking  for a way to be independent Gina again, along with being a wife and mama. All I can do is keep praying and exploring new ways to create that for myself.  I am so grateful for my journey and all the new opportunities that are coming my way!

Love & Peace

Gina