Irma brings a Gust of Gratitude


I had imagined all sorts of things to write today, but with hurricane Irma hitting everything, it's hard to really to go on about my life right now. Keep checking the news to where it's hitting. One of my dearest and oldest friends lives in Tampa. I've been so worried about Heidi, but she finally messaged me today. She and her daughter are together in a safe place. I find it really bizarre that we have these really strong hurricanes and then an earthquake in Mexico. You think God might be trying to tell us something?! Circumstances like these make you look at your life differently.  Gratitude becomes forefront to me.

This morning we were deciding where to hang family pictures. All the artwork is up. Going through the phone looking through trillions of pictures of Myah, set against the city of New York along with family and friends. I have to admit some it made me blue, but mostly grateful for all of it. The circumstances in our lives have changed so much and things have been difficult at times but it could be so much worse. That is what is present for me right now and how much of all of it I take for granted.

It's almost 2 years since my Mother and my Aunt were killed in a car accident. Life has never been the same. I miss my Mother and sad at the fact I relied on her living a lot longer than she did and the same goes for my Aunt Nancy. She was my back up plan. A long time ago I learned a lesson the hard way. What other way is there, right? Make sure you tell the people in your life how you feel about them. My grandfather died before I could tell him I loved him. He was so special to me and one of the greatest loves of my life. Ever since then I make a point of conveying my appreciation and feelings to those close to me. It's gratitude and a of way praising God.

My house isn't flooded, we have food in the house and everyone is healthy. I am so grateful for the people in my life and the love and the light they give me! Especially my husband Jesse who is the love of my life! I am a woman who lives with a time bomb in her brain (very grateful that it's been over 6 years since it's gone off) and I am even grateful for that bomb!