Love and Acceptance
|Photo by Jesse Epstein|
Well, I am working my new venture, but not up and running yet. I have some training to do and really I am approaching this much differently than any job I've had before. It's my business and I get to say how it goes.
I had this 17 day program to do as part of the process of setting up the business. It has been good because it helped me see where I am still really hard on myself. This is just a recurring theme in my life. The degree to which I am hard on myself has changed greatly, but I am still not giving myself a break.
Yesterday, I had an "Ah Ha" moment. It comes down to basically this: I am not loving myself on the level that I deserve and that isn't going to cause abundance in my life.
Now, I do love myself. I have worked hard to get where I am today. There is no discrediting the work I've done. But what else do I need to do? Have I fully embraced myself? No, because I always have to be hard on myself no matter what!
We moved in last year to our new home. We decorated pretty quickly, but I kept saying to myself that it still needs work! Well, last night I came down to the kitchen and acknowledged that we have a pretty house. Honestly it doesn't need much work. It just represents more pressure I like to put on myself.
You see that's what I do! Pressure!!! I think if I am extra hard on myself, the things I want will happen. This is such a terrible story I tell myself. It makes everything I do twice as hard.
Something else I realized: I have gotten rid of some of this pressure in relation to how I proceed with my business. I know I am going to be successful, so why beat myself up about it? Another thing I saw was that I've been trying lose some weight, only about 25 or 30 lbs. Twelve years ago I lost 114 lbs. and have kept all but this 25 or 30 lbs. off. Since I started to lose weight whatever I've done hasn't been enough. I am not eating right and not exercising enough. This list goes on and on.
What has happened is that I realized that whatever I am doing is working and I am going to reach my weight goal. It doesn't matter how it all looks. Since I decided to approach my weight loss this way, I am actually having results! Go figure?!
Loving ourselves is so important! We all deserve to feel the divine within in us. It's really beautiful. The last thing I am going to share is that everything isn't perfect, but I have the awareness now to see when I am being hard on myself. I can now stop and direct myself to love and acceptance of who I am on a much deeper level than before.
Love and Peace!