What I've been up to?

 

Hola,

I wanted to share what I am up to and what is opening up for me this past year or so. Last year I wrote how I was job hunting and how difficult it was and is. Though, I decided to stop looking for a job probably last summer.

My world last year kind of imploded all at once: being frustrated in networking, going to school and not really being happy with the prospects in my life. I did what I always do -- look for some sort of personal development to move me along.  I read Brene Brown's "Braving the Wilderness." An excellent book! Then I came across an ad on instagram for Tony Robbins "Rise" event. It was free and for 3 days. 

I've done a lot of personal development in my life but never attended anything by Tony Robbins. Enjoyed this event immensely and immediately signed up for his "Unleash the Power Within" in March of 2025.

In the time between these 2 events my beautiful amazing daughter Myah woke up one day with a big lump in her lymph node in her neck. We rushed her to the doctor and blood tests revealed she had a bacteria infection. She took antibiotics but they weren't helping. So, we landed in the hospital for a week with IV's of antibiotics and then surgery to drain the abscess that had formed. We thought everything was okay.

I got home to find out that my own health was not good. My doctor sent me to the emergency room in the nearest hospital. Now this was Tuesday and I was to start Tony's new event the coming Thursday. I remember sitting in the emergency room and hoping I wouldn't have to stay so I could do Tony's event. The attending doctor told me I wasn't in an emergency and blood tests showed my organs working well. It was my blood and iron were low. So, he sent me on my way.

Even though I didn't feel physically up to Tony's event I attended and played full out! I even broke a board with my own hand! What opened up for me was I was hanging onto old beliefs that no longer served who I have become and that these beliefs were actually hindering me by not letting me see myself in a more powerful way. 

As this was all unfolding for me, my daughter Myah's lump came back and we were headed to the Children's hospital in San Jose where they removed the lymph node entirely. A very stressful time for all of us. I kept thinking of all the things I've learned and tried applying them while going through all of this.I knew I couldn't control the outcome, but I could stay present for my daughter and keep the faith for all of us. Thankfully, it all worked out. Myah had a bacteria infection in her lymph node which was successfully removed.

Back home I felt grateful, exhausted and anxious. This was traumatic for all of us but for me it triggered my PTSD and I struggled for a few months. Then, I took an event by Tony's wife Sage Robbins called "She's Unstoppable," a three day event with women from all over the world. Very powerful event for me. Here I saw how hard I have been on myself for everything. I was motivating myself through perfectionism and fear. The night of day 2 of the event, I went to bed crying because I really saw how mean I was to myself and the lie that I was kinder to myself than when I was an addict. In my addiction I was just plain nasty to myself but in recovery I still found a way to be hard on myself based on a belief that I was a burden. After crying in my husband's arms for awhile I made a decision and that was to no longer be hard on myself like that and enjoy the process of writing my book and creating my coaching business. 

The next morning I woke up and felt relief and joy for the first time in a long time. I also knew my purpose was to help other women who have been addicts and /or have mental issues to help them realize their dreams as I have. I have learned through Tony Robbin's and his team to enjoy the process of reaching for my goals and that is something I rarely have done. 

Now, as I am establishing Ginamarie Coaching and working with a business coach. I am enjoying everything about this journey even the frustrating days with technology. Though I keep moving forward every day and every day there is a win either big or small. 

What I truly realize is that I am a strong powerful woman with so much to give and that I was letting old beliefs and patterns stop me from serving my God and other women.

I feel grateful for my prayers being answered, for being called to serve, and for finally understanding that every day is it's own mission.

Love and Peace

Ginamarie